person Josslyn Turner, two poems

Josslyn Turner is a trans queer poet, writer, and abstract artist. She’s studying English Literature at Modesto Junior College. She’s working toward a BA in English and an MFA in poetry. Her poems have appeared in Journal Nine, Oyster River Pages, Voice of Eve, and elsewhere. She lives in Waterford, California where she co-parents two awesome boys.

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On Getting My First Massage in the Loft of the Tri-Chromatic Gallery

Electric fan
blows like baby’s
breath.

I inhale       the silence.

Masseuse’s hands
meld muscle & skin
& Cannabis oil.

Constant thoughts
of dying—
from car crash
to gunshot
to hanging from rope—
are gone
in this moment.

Underneath her hands,
my skin tingles
like tiny diamonds
bursting
in my calm
darkness.

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Keanna

Her tinted glasses and black jacket match her cool persona.
She raises a tiny hand to give a high-five, says,

“How ya doin’?” in her best Brooklyn impression.
“I’m good,” I say and ask her the same.
“Awesome,” she says with two thumbs up.

She looks down to speak to someone who is not there.

“I just met a new friend,” she says, shaking my hand.
“He’s a cool guy.”

She doesn’t remember last spring
when she asked if I were a boy or a girl.

Girl was my answer. Awesome was hers.
I held my chest to keep my heart from spilling out.

“I’m a girl, remember,” I tell her now.
“Yeah,” she says. “You’re a girl.”

She looks away in the distance of the schoolyard.
I don’t follow her gaze because the sunlight

touches her brown face for a Pulitzer Prize shot,
and I don’t have a camera.

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