person Ed Churchouse, four poems

Ed Churchouse is from Bristol, England.

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WHITE NOTES (I)

our heartbeats echo drumskin taut,
played on these last bones of winter
by the rain that falls between us
and the old gods and the new gods
leave you in the same empty room
that isn’t empty because you.

love speaks the language of mistakes
love prays at the it’s alright altar
love fights together wars

and if today paints you upstairs
and me below you,
tomorrow hopes

you understand that all the right words
are just backwards enjambed w/the verb to shadow
holding hands with the adjective forgiven

and my patchwork syntax
holds you honeycomb in sleep.

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PROVERBS FOR COBRA

they say elephant knows elephant
and horse knows horse. but when living is done,
death is here. it’s a long way out and a short journey in;
drowning while you clutch at the foam.
your wife first,
then god.

and as you beat a dog,
you look at its owner; arriving late to gnaw only on the bones.
one neck
two nooses
one mouth
two stomachs
one woman
two men.

a magpie, starved, eats the banyan;
a phoenix, starved, eats chicken shit.
i hold a knife by its blade.
the wind blows,
god’s broom.

we’re carrying wood for the fire,
back to its forest,
better sated,
dead,
than alive and hungry.
better sated,
dead,
all our sins
still whole.

with his friends, a man crosses the sea; a woman fords the stream alone,
worried by the crooks of her knees, the bow of each pubic hair.

yes yes, i know your wife:
cross-eyed
and selling rice
at the temple gate.

yes yes, i know you:
you’re the poppy eater with bruised lips, fickle as the palm of your hand;
green face, yellow fangs.
petal face, powdered skin.
fish eats the ants, ants eat the fish.
owl face, eel skin.

ugly as a ghost
yet good enough for her to fuck him,
he danced badly, cried that the ground was uneven
and the cunning eat men while the stupid are eaten.

god made elephant, god made grass.
swinging a stick in an empty garden,
dead with all your sins intact
(ate the whole dog
even the fur;

drawing a snake
and adding legs,

growing hair inside your stomach,

like salt
tossed into the ocean.

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IN ETERNITY’S WAITING ROOM, WITH HIS WILD STRAY MOTHER

she would sit outside our back door
silent
staring
wet amber spastic sparrow wing eyes,
this way and that,
running when we brought her food,
only eating it when she was alone
again.

two weeks of this
and she gave in,
good evening regret tomorrow,
allowed us closer
allowed us to touch her
and, not long after,
we were her humans.

couldn’t tell
that she was pregnant,
black too thin and tan,
until one two a.m.
she awakened us
howling, screeching,
running at the walls
and coughing curses
that only rats and dogs
might recognise.

took her an hour of panting and biting
to expel the first kitten,
brown tabby lines crossing his ginger,
he seemed twice his mother’s size.
the second slipped out easy
and immediate; stillborn,
she simply shat him.

and he was smaller,
pale orange, slant eyes half open
as he lay in a pool of his mother,
unbreathing
and
seemingly not needed by the world.

she pushed him,
exhausted, with her nose
and pulled her rough tongue
across his sticky fur.

after fifteen minutes or so,
his thin carp body gasped a breath
and he was alive,
ready to claw and feed and struggle
with the rest of us.

a week later,
we found the older,
bigger kitten
flattened,
killed by his mother in her sleep.

the smaller runt’s still here,
not much more grown than when he awoke,
that night,
having been in that other place
for quarter of an hour,
having already seen
what his brother
sees now,

having already heard
that impossible black whistling
which we all wait
to cock our hunting heads at.

he won’t let you touch him,
he’s cold and often dirty,
as if being clean isn’t important to him

he won’t sit with you
or comb teeth flicked
purr his contentment.

little bastard,
we called him

and that he is;

resentful of his mother’s tongue,
resentful of the hands
that
forced him live
that
made him leave forever.

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DEAD BIRD

pristine, save
for your silent heart;
dropped or fallen
out of june.

definitely
dead,
still & sideways,
halfway
along
a bridge.

mute blue comma,
w/tiny, turned off
fullstop eyes,
you force
me caesura early
in the walking
home from work.

you’ll dessicate
in ticking slow
for a fortnight
until
street cleaner
or a dog
gets rid.

but for now,
and then,
i’ll stop and stare
while every other
pair of feet keeps
moving;

ambered

and the only trees are chains away
and the only mark that’s left on you

is nothing’s.

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